I Am Spiritual Posted by Hannah on January 16th, 2010
For the last few years, I have been working hard to discover my religion, my beliefs and everything in between. I have dedicated entries to my beliefs in the past and have my religion mapped out in the section labeled for myself.
One thing I rarely mention is my spiritual, deeper side. I have to say, it’s all because of my dear best friend Heather that I have this side and I will be forever grateful.
I would give anything to have herbal medication take place of all the other medicines out there. I do take non-herbal medication, but I can’t avoid that. I have medical issues, and they need taken care of. It’s not something I can work around, sadly, but I wish that wasn’t the case.
I had a small bag containing teeny, tiny dolls that remained under my mattress until we moved things around and it ended up lost. That bag was given to me by a friend when she went on vacation. The dolls are meant to represent all the worries one has so, when you go to sleep, or even lie in bed your worries are in the sack and not your head.
Those are the types of things I strongly believe in.
I’m constantly finding signs, but I’m not looking for them–they just happen. I do believe in coincidences, but I believe that signs are out there as well of what to come.
One thing that always represented my ex-boyfriend to me was Nightmare Before Christmas–specifically Jack, as it was his favorite character. Mike is an amazing artist and, once, drew this totally amazing picture of him which has always stayed in my memories. Well, I went on a mini shopping spree and, at Borders, they happened to have just one Jack figure on clearance for $5 instead of $20. I bought it, as I’m a gigantic fan of the movie and love Jack to bits, all memories of my ex aside. Since then, various moments in my life keep going back to him and his family, specifically to his family and his mother. I didn’t think of my ex when I bought it. I was just excited to get something so nice in one of my fandoms. But today, it all came together and I discovered why I kept receiving all of these signs pointing to them: my mother told me that, last night, she was with my ex’s mother and she gave my mother (to give me) a disk of photos she found that she thought I’d like. His mother never thinks about me, according to my mother.
I don’t come up in conversation ever, she never asks about me, it was all very random that she would even think to do that, but it meant a lot. I look forward to discovering what else all of these signs have in store for me as I’m sure there is something.
But my spirituality…
Heather had posted on her private journal a link to this website that sells stones that are meant to boost life in various ways and teas as well. A lot of people think those are all a load of crap, but that’s far from me. As soon as I have the funds to drop, I’m going there and buying myself some tea to help my health and other aspects of my life that could use a healthy boost.
One of my goals, again this year, is to be more healthy. I’ve always said I wanted to go running or work out, but I never did it. This year, I will do that. We have a treadmill in our basement that’s really nice and I should be using it. I do still dance frequently around myself, which is a very good work out, especially cardio.
I want to eat more healthy and organic, eat more pasta, eat less junk (a path I started on last year :)) and keep my life “cleaner.” I know I can do it.
I cut caffeinated drinks out of my life cold turkey when I was just 10. Yes, I drink Mtn Dew now, and I drink a lot of it. However, on the flip side, I know that I couldn’t do everything that I do without its help, especially when I’m working, attending class and doing a play. But I don’t eat a lot of junk in other ways. I rarely eat candy. Matter of fact, it’s weird when we even have candy in this house as my mother doesn’t eat it either. We keep a pint of my favorite ice cream in the freezer, but it takes me almost until it expires to finish it, and I’m quite proud of that.
I drink a lot of tea (more in the summer than winter, actually) and do my best to live in a healthy atmosphere. I like believing in a clean life in terms of keeping toxins out of my body the best I can, I like that I enjoy spirituality…I’ve quite settled into this new version of myself the last year.
The cleaner Hannah. The Hannah that is a lot more free, and the Hannah that keeps her heart open to anyone wanting to enter.
I just hope that I can keep on this path. I’d really like to try incense, and other spiritual related items to help my life out. I only get a chance to live once, so I might as well do the best I know how to with it, right? 
Filed under: Beliefs, Ex-Boyfriend, Health, Heather
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Hannah is an 19-year-old Computer Technology major who has found that being single isn't as scary as it seems, and is happy living life with only a mother. With a brother (Ryan) that was discharged from the army, two crazy and altogether amazing best friends (Heather and Lauren)and days full of gaming and being blonde, life is far from subtle.Married to Justin Long.
Stuck in an elevator with Hatori Sohma.
I am the Tohru Honda on the WWW.
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